Yresim™
by Joshua on May.09, 2009, under Day by Day...
Every night before i sleep, i’ll contemplate on the things that i’ve done during the day. Things i’ve missed out doing. Mistakes i’ve made, and deeds i’ve did or whatever it is. But sometimes on some nights, i’ll just miss out this moment of time i always have with myself. Because my mind is occupied with something else. If you might have guessed it, yeah. It’s Misery.
I think the picture of my life and my family being painted to you guys or whomever who knows me, is done too well. Everything is hidden too perfectly, even my closest don’t know shit about anything. Even my mom or brother.
I look around at people of my age who are still studying or who are still in army. How comforting it is, to be still hidden from reality. Or maybe, I’m the only one who’ll ever be facing this kinda problems.
If you root it back to the issue. What’s the problem? Tsk tsk, money.. Yeah, it has always been the case ever since i was earning those miserable sums coming to think about it.
19th of May 09. I’m supposed to go on a variety show to talk about my personal life. I’m going to call it right off. I don’t have anything to talk about anymore. I don’t wanna lie to anyone no more. I don’t want to tell myself how fortunate i am anymore. Because I’m not.
If right at the age of 20, without much accomplishments. And you’ve got nothing to say about your family, because nothing was cherished. And nothing was worthy of being remembered. What’s the point?
I’ve been lying to everyone. Even my closest, just to paint the picture well, just to put that brave front in front of everyone else and make everything look perfectly alright. Even me myself fall for it sometimes, believing that it’s really the life i’m leading. Which is not.
I’m not going to fall for it again. Ever.
Today is the last day, that i’m ever gonna feel anything for that person. Nothing. With these said, it all ends here.
Nutzhen™ 090509
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May 9th, 2009 on 7:42 am
ends here? not la….
just tell ’bout the truth,, not be lie, although it will be hurt….
May 9th, 2009 on 8:40 am
Relax ~
Not think too much Oh!
Know?
May 9th, 2009 on 8:43 am
Joshua! don’t feel so down okay. (: No matter what happens many people will still support you.
and everyone has their sad moments, and after they rant it out, they will feel much better. so rant them out! haha. 
:D be happy always. (:
May 9th, 2009 on 8:50 am
‘Our real blessings often appear to us in the shapes of pains, losses and disappointments; but let us have patience, and we soon shall see them in their proper figures.’ – Joseph Addison
I hope this helps nonetheless!
May 9th, 2009 on 9:03 am
Oops, wat happen Josh. You really sound so miserable. Cheer up, at the age of 20, you already have much accomplishments. You chose your career path and so many peoples love your show, that’s already an achievement. Jia You!
May 9th, 2009 on 9:12 am
写的越来越有深度了.
一直很欣赏你,真的,觉得你有很多面性和神秘感~
May 9th, 2009 on 9:35 am
heys, why are you so down?
try looking on the brighter side of life.
no matter how bad things are, there’s always a positive side to it.
you can try changing things for the better.
be happy! =)
May 9th, 2009 on 10:09 am
what happened?
sometimes just look at things from another window(although i dont know what’s happening)
smile more:D
May 9th, 2009 on 10:33 am
0.0 what happened?Yous seems like so sad?
Is It family prob?Aiyarh,dont sad,if it were to be family prob,then you’re alot fortunate than me:)
Everything yous wrote here,is like how ii feel for myself,whenever im down.
So yeahhh,dont think so much.
May 9th, 2009 on 10:39 am
if the person were to be after your money,then ii think yous shouldnt be attentive to him/her.
Moeny is just nothing,friendship is the most imp,if the person doesnt understand this concept,Then ii think yous shouldnt be cherishing the ‘friendship’ between the both of yous.
May 9th, 2009 on 11:01 am
oh did something happened recently? U sounds so miserable…
Well, at least for me, i think u did accomplished many things at the age of 20. Think about it, u started acting since young for watever reason and wat u gained was experiences. Experiences that many others will nv gain. At a young age of 20, u already saw many things and have a career while many others are still idling their time again not knowing what the future lies for them.
Furthermore, some ppl are just more fortunate than others. So long as u strive to do well in watever u decide to do, u will find happiness. For even if there’s no success, u noe that u did give it ur best shot. Focus on the positive, dump all the negatives into the bin, maybe u will feel happier.
Remember these?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XC3UNgsahj8&feature=related
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nzyZ2vbPdEQ&feature=related
Those are the experiences….. since young….while others of the same age are still gong gong toot toot hehee
U r still young, plenty of opportunities lies ahead of u, but hold on to the right beliefs and mindset, only then can u move ahead.
I wish u happiness.
)
May 9th, 2009 on 11:28 am
Joshua…
CHEER UP,manz!
dont worry & be happy=))
you got msn?
can add me?
secret_097@hotmail.com
May 9th, 2009 on 11:38 am
Just happy to yourself !
May 9th, 2009 on 12:06 pm
hey joshua.. i tink no matter what it is..just cheer up yea… you have always been someone whom we know u as and will forever be.. No matter how unhappy u are, how much u have hidden urself from e reality, just pray to God and ask him for help.. ask him to help lead u to e right way yea.. CHEERS!!
May 9th, 2009 on 12:12 pm
never mind lars… FOrget and dont keep on harping on it and you’ll feel fine. GOD BLESS!
May 9th, 2009 on 12:34 pm
Ouh, dun b upset. Everyone have our own path n our own way 2 solve our probs. So cheer up, everybody bhind u is supporting u including me. =D
May 9th, 2009 on 12:39 pm
diaoz..why u sound like..
u lied to everyone and like ur full of regrets and also sad ..
stay happy ! At the age of 20,ur considered good ! Not like me..nth in ppl’s eyes..
ppl know u .. they dun know me this unknown?
Stay happy kay ? Sad de should be me..
Whether or not just stay happy !
I will support u always kk ?
Stay happy !
May 9th, 2009 on 12:41 pm
please don’t stop writing
life is beautiful.
May 9th, 2009 on 12:46 pm
Jia you all e way no matter wad. Everione hav his o her own path o way 2 go. Let urself relax 4 a moment. Dun b over exhausted.
May 9th, 2009 on 1:08 pm
wat happen? try looking at a positivie angle…
remember to be happy!
May 9th, 2009 on 1:20 pm
i personally feels that the age of an adult, it’s time to plan for your future. humans would definitey face severals obstacles that obsturct or bring misery to your life. you may try to find any of your friends to rant your feelings.
hope you understand my comment as i’ve always have problems structuring my sentences and hope that my comment is relevant to your post.
May 9th, 2009 on 1:23 pm
Hey joshua. Cheer up. Things will take a turn for the better if you work towards it. Be yourself, that’s the most important thing. Take care. God bless you.
May 9th, 2009 on 1:41 pm
Joshua,i really hope that you’ll cheer up. No matter what, there’s always people supporting you, care and love you. Don’t think too much alright ? (:
May 9th, 2009 on 2:09 pm
Cheer up ^-^ . Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift.
May 9th, 2009 on 2:54 pm
i’m sure tat there’s happiness and unhappiness in life, and ii believe there’s more happiness than unhappiness.
cheer up!
=)
May 9th, 2009 on 3:12 pm
aiya..
dun too sad laa,
cheer up !
._.
May 9th, 2009 on 3:21 pm
if you think that you’ve been lying to urself and everyone around you, the more you should go to that variety show and say it all out.
if you want to stop lying to urself and the rest of the world around u, first thing you have to do is to be truthful.
say out the truth. time to be true to urself and the rest.
dont run away. it won’t solve anything.
for once, be nice to urself and acknowledge the truth..
good luck.
=)
May 9th, 2009 on 3:57 pm
come on.relationship problem?alot of friends will betray u,so u must know your true friends.come on.cheer up/:D
May 9th, 2009 on 4:03 pm
silly. i’m sure they care, in a different manner. cannot make comparisons.
i used to feel the same as you too. then money issues slowly became root of the problem.
u’ve got your friends, and those who yearn to see you smile.:)
May 9th, 2009 on 4:23 pm
Well if you think you did not accomplish much, then i suggest you do something extra-ordinary. Strengthening your bond with your Family, and trying out something, other than Acting. 20 years old is just 20% through the process of life, ease yourself. You have lots of achievements yet to be accomplished. As for Money, i can’t make comments about it. Its good that you wrote this on your blog, so do consider other people’s comment filled with solutions. Everything we do have risks. We have to balance them, in order to reach that perfection.
May 9th, 2009 on 4:25 pm
if you want to continue life as it is this way, then it will stay this way. i think only you can change your own life.
so just get up, think positive! nothing is easy, you might have to struggle a lot to go through all these, but its better than to be stuck here forever, right!
May 9th, 2009 on 5:14 pm
joshua wad happen?cheer up k?dun think too much….and pls dun stop writing.
May 9th, 2009 on 5:16 pm
joshua wad happen?cheer up k?dun think too much….and pls dun stop writing.many people will support you.
May 9th, 2009 on 5:56 pm
please stay happy and not be sad. cheer up!! (:
May 9th, 2009 on 6:44 pm
Seems to be emo tonite huh? I feel so lucky u will feel emo in front of ur fans, otherwise i worry u need to consult psychologist in a coming day LOL. I know tht being an actor is hard, stress from fans, from family, from company and media? n from urself. But this is life lar. see from the brighter side, U have a bunch of fans that supporting u although they may not know the hard situations that u r facing. As a student, I envy u, same as u envy students life. Nobody is perfect, find someone u can talk to and share~ smile ^_^ promise me face ur life with smiling k ?
May 9th, 2009 on 8:19 pm
well, as for ur age of 20. cannot say that u have lots of accomplishments however i can say that u have indeed face much more problem than wat ur peers are facing, accomplish more than wat ur peers have done. step into the reality much more earlier than wat peers are doing. well this is life. sooner or later u will still have to face it. find someone to talk to, is time to do so.
May 9th, 2009 on 8:19 pm
Hey.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and lean not on your own understanding. In all your ways, acknowledge Him, and He will make your path straight. (Proverbs 3:5-6)
I hope you remember that God said He would never leave you nor forsake you. And with that assurance, I wish you all the best in not only your acting career, but also your life on a holistic scale.
And with that, please strive on.
Dinnie.
May 9th, 2009 on 8:31 pm
DAM HELL DONT END HERE! You might feel unfortunate, let me tell you, everyone feels that way at some point of them. But although i don’t know much of your life stories, to others opinion still, i feel that you are FORTUNATE. OR MAYBE just less fortunate than your circle of friends but you ARE STILL FORTUNATE. You don’t have to lie anything, i believe ya fortunate from WHAT YOU HAVE NOW
treasure man, ya my idol always and i don’t care what misery you think you are, you being what you are today is a pleasure, a fortune in some way. cheer ups man. DONT GIVE UP.
May 9th, 2009 on 8:37 pm
btw,
if eu free,
can eu add mie at:
PEIXIN_@hotmail.com
tytyty
^^
dun b sad.
;P
May 9th, 2009 on 8:54 pm
you should know very well that everyone around you will have problems. Some more than others, some more complicated. What you should do is always tell yourself that everything that happens is not always your fault, although not everybody would think like that, but give some consideration on what i just said.
You would feel better if you are optimistic! Look at life in a different perspective and you can bring joy to yourself, and others around you!
Think about it!
May 9th, 2009 on 9:04 pm
Don’t be so negative.
Everything is planned well by God.
Whether it goes right or wrong, God will lead you to the right path.
It’s not that you have nothig to tell, it is because you don’t know where to start.
Then it’ll start to Sejm as if everything you’ve done is a lie. (:
May 9th, 2009 on 9:23 pm
Hey!
Cheer up!!!
There’s a will,there’s a way.
Don’t be too sad.
人生中也有不开心的事。
把这些不愉快的事抛在后面，
明天会跟好的！
Don’t be discourage because of somethings.
Just don’t give up yourself.
If you are really that sad,talk to someone you trusted with.Don’t keep all the unhappiness inside your heart.Play the piano will make your feelings better
From now onwards,just be yourself!
You must love yourself in order to love others!
May 9th, 2009 on 9:23 pm
Cheer up yeah. Life’s too short to dwell on things. You’ve got tons of support from your fam, friends and especially fans, like me. So you know you’re never alone. (:
Take care.
May 9th, 2009 on 9:40 pm
Ｄｏ ｙｏｕｒ ｂｅｓｔ ａｎｄ Ｇｏｄ ｗｉｌｌ ｄｏ ｔｈｅ ｒｅｓｔ！
May 9th, 2009 on 9:41 pm
：）：）：）
May 9th, 2009 on 9:42 pm
DO YOUR BEST, AND GOD WILL DO THE REST!!!
May 9th, 2009 on 9:51 pm
jushos, you are the best one!
you can’t be in despair!
well. i just want to show you that there is no absolut standard for it!
should be a tight man ! Don’t be sad!
ok? you are the best! you should be!
Mnnnn…
ok no matter what , you should brace up!
May 9th, 2009 on 10:02 pm
Hi
Just be happy
Every day is a new day.
No1 will balme u for anything
No1 is perfect. Just be yourself.
Smiles ok
~S.M.I.L.E.S~
May 9th, 2009 on 10:12 pm
Those eyes. “yresim” can be seen though..
Cheers.
May 9th, 2009 on 10:26 pm
I guess issues like that comes hand-in-hand with fame.
either way, count your blessings. at least you have made a mark in Singapore, people know who you are
… and at least you got to see the person for who he or she is like before you fall in too deep. ._.
cheer up, and focus on the good things that happened in your life.
May 9th, 2009 on 10:51 pm
SMILE:)
May 9th, 2009 on 11:01 pm
hey cheer up k.. Don feel so sad…. Looks things at a better side n compare those tat are so much worst than u… At least u are still not tat bad after all…
May 9th, 2009 on 11:19 pm
cheer up k ! its ok…
=)
May 9th, 2009 on 11:42 pm
hey, cheer up
May 9th, 2009 on 11:45 pm
take off the mask that you’ve been putting on in front of them & you’ll see a different life. & you’ll definitely feel better.
the fact that you could see yourself, you’re strong & brave enough.
Goodluck.
May 10th, 2009 on 12:07 am
hi,yous intending to join the ‘dont forget the lyrics’mandarin version?
Do reply:)
May 10th, 2009 on 12:11 am
you needa face the reality,,, so do others [=
dont forget God, He is there! yeah!
use your forefingers and pull the corners of your mouth and see how handsome you are in the mirror!
:D:D
May 10th, 2009 on 12:13 am
and tell us how handsome you are okay???
May 10th, 2009 on 12:41 am
I know the job you are doing now and money not easy to earn and people in this circle alway said 演艺圈的饭很难吃, which i agree. To let you know i used to be in this circle too and of course you won`t know me la cos i used nick name here but i am sure i know how you feel what you mean. I used to be and extra in this circle but i do not want to do it anymore cos alway had to wait just to earn that little money is wasting of time but do you know i also enjoy that moment too. I know it might not be related to job but of couse i know how ppl like to look at ppl in this circle, they alway think ppl in this circle earn so much they are so rich especially since young started this career. Ppl will said you are more rich and you will become the supplier in the end like you had to alway qive out then take in cos you are rich and this is what “friend” will do to you i am sure and you cannot blah blah anything you like cos if you started saying thing wrong you will get lot of noise saying you are wrong you cannot do this and that especially you got your own blog. I know is not easy for you as you are the only person in your family who goes into this line so your family will not know that much inside out too. I know only your own blog you can pour everything out which no one can blah in your blog cos that is your blog your way so ppl can only accept. Comment not nice just ignore, but what i saw here is all the comment are good one ppl here respect you so much including me too. I hope you won`t close your blog althought many other want to used celeb blog to made woo haa but i thing just be yourself will do. I really feel cute on your blog cos you are yourself in here so don`t feel shy to write whatever you think you want as this is Joshua ma. Maybe you should pour out your feeling to Dk haa cos he definetely a good listener. To let you know you are not the first to said don`t want to write in blog anymore. The first one is yiDa huang as he is down feeling at sometime ago and he really mean it he close it. Try not to be a 100% perfectionist and you will sure find happilness, trust me
May 10th, 2009 on 12:45 am
spending some time doing reflection is gd for yourself.. but of cos there’re times of -ve thoughts abt what u’ve gone thru. but im sure at some point in time, u reflected that u had more fortunate moments than others. hope u’d also appreciate what u have and be grateful too! jiayou~
May 10th, 2009 on 12:47 am
oooo so sorry i think i worte too long but hope you get my message. Happiness is really inside your pocket so don`t forget to take it out and use. Hey this is and old actor in tcs who told me before so try your best JYJY…….
May 10th, 2009 on 12:48 am
Remember this,No one is perfect:)
Sorry for the many messages that I’ve post
May 10th, 2009 on 1:18 am
Wheneva u r upset… E comments always increases really fast… I tink everyone is tryin to show how much they care for u… No matter wat u face in life… U had come so far… U hav ur family, u hav ur frenz… U even hav us, fans… U noe many of us r here for u… Jia you le!!! I noe u might tink tt we ll nv noe how u feel… But juz as a fan of urs… Really hope tt u can be more cheerful!!! Jia you Joshua!!! =)
May 10th, 2009 on 1:26 am
the reality is, life really isnt that full of happiness afterall.
maybe you could just take it as a lesson learnt in life and it could enrich your life experience.
anyway, ever thought of furthering your studies?
May 10th, 2009 on 1:31 am
no offence but let me guess what makes u so miserable. money. ur folks asking u for money? eversince u started making that which u call yours?. if i’d hit the bulleye, trust me, u’re definately not alone. n if i’m wrong. just treat this as bullshit. what’s important is: if u think u dont like this way of life, u still have so many next 20years to live it ur way.
May 10th, 2009 on 1:45 am
Even though things ain’t going the way you wished for, just hang in there coz I believe you will definitely get through it. Life’s ain’t sweet. But what can we do? There are many things in life we can’t choose. So try to endure and do whatever you can now. Do things that you won’t regret when you look back in the future. I believe you have a promising future. =)
Also, just be your true self in front of your closed ones coz i believed that’s what they wished for too and they are supposed to be the ones u can lean on. Stop being hard on yourself coz your closest ones would feel hurt when they know it.
Stay strong. You should know who’s ard you when u need support. Jia You. =) .ild.
May 10th, 2009 on 2:02 am
hey sometimes i feel that way too. like you, i’m also 20 this year. i have some health problem that i doubt can be cured but i look perfectly fine so no one really knows. to many, i seem to be a happy and optimistic girl who seems to be able to get whatever she wants. however, deep inside me i know i’m not. cos at the end of the day i know i’ll never be able to get true happiness. anyway, do take care alright. it can get really tiring but i guess sometimes things don’t always go your way. i know it’s difficult to not think about stuff like that but i guess just try? if not then like me, learn to adapt. (:
May 10th, 2009 on 9:42 am
Joshua…. your relationship with DK, has it finally gotten to you? i think you know what i am talking about.
May 10th, 2009 on 10:01 am
Morning Joshua, feeling better already? Hopefully u get to rest today too and can do some of the things that u like to do.
Stay happy always!
May 10th, 2009 on 1:16 pm
I wouldn’t say cheer up to you cause I don’t know what happened. ;(
But I want to remind you that you are not as useless as you make yourself out to be, ya? I must say that the entertainment industry is a vicious place that masks people’s nature. It’s a scary place. x.x
I love you. WE( fans) all love you. So don’t be sad no more. Not all guys at 20 have fans you know. xD So don’t be sad anymore, it makes us sad, or me, for the record.
SMILE. x]
May 10th, 2009 on 1:34 pm
JOSHUA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
relax kay….no matter wad, u still hv many many many supporters behind u…….if nt at least 1…..AND TATS ME!!!!!!!!!!!!! u noe wad…..u sound so much like he shengwu in table of glory lols…….cheer up kay…u hv a long long long way to go in life….actually at th age of 15 i was alr fed-up…..im far worse than u kay……but since u hv alr chosen ur path, work towards it…….trust me….learn to be pleased wif th little u hv in life……coz u noe 1 day, u’ll hv a lot more if u work hard…..well i learnt tat at th age of 15 frm my dad……hay 1 lsat thing…….i’ve been DYING to contact u personally so if u hv msn and u cld add my yahoo add rite….i’ll be……..i’ll go crazy….u can ask any1 frm swiss cottage sec they’ll tell u abt my craze! mysterious_mystery_of_the_year94@rocketmail.com it’s yahoo but nvm
May 10th, 2009 on 1:57 pm
everyone has their own deep lying secrets.
everyone has a fair bit of stuff which they dont like to reveal to others.
and that’s perfectly okay.
being your age, i could almost understand what you meant.
though of course, you, being a celeb, makes it all worse.
cos everybody wants to know about your life, your privacy.
but you know what?
nobody can make you do what you dont wanna do.
living in misery may be painful.
but living in delusion and then waking up from it to face the reality is worse.
i think ur decision to not attend the talk show is right.
dont do it if you don’t like it.
May 10th, 2009 on 2:58 pm
Its ok to feel down at times. Life is never perfect. For all the good things we’ve gotten, there will be the opposite bad things that happen as well.
From the tone of your post, it seems that the person is one of your family members. It doesnt matter what he/she did to u cos at the end of the day, he/she will still be part of the family.
Everyone family do have their own problems. Its understandable that sometimes you will feel that you have the worse family in the world. But do accept that nth is perfect in this world. We have to compromise and accept each others flaws. If u were to close the doors right now, it will just make matters worse. Try putting in a bit of effort to salvage the situation. I promise that others will see the little effort of yours. And definitely, things done for the family is never wasted. Think positively
May 10th, 2009 on 5:41 pm
same for me
May 10th, 2009 on 6:13 pm
hihi it’s me again!!!!!! gsmint is totally right man…………u muz muz muz think positively!!!!!!!!!!! if not life will be full of misery!!!!and nvr think u’re alone….we’re all with u giving u all our support……..if nt at least i am:) and can u pls pls pls pls pls pls please add me at my yahoo add??????? PLEASEEEEEEEEE…….. haha i noe im crazy but i juz wanna talk to u at least once in my life………………..please please please add me at mysterious_mystery_of_the_year94@rocketmail.com ………………please arh….. and…… WE LOVE YOU JOSHUA/HE SHENGWU…
May 10th, 2009 on 6:16 pm
LAST 1 HAHAS….u r actually my inspiration do u noe….lols i noe u dunno tats why im tellin u:] hahas so if my inspiration breaks down….then how??????so pull urself together and go thru life’s challenges strongly….i noe u can do it joshua!!!!!!! haha jia yous…….jyjy…..
May 10th, 2009 on 8:31 pm
It must be tiring for you to put on a brave front for everyone else huh? Either on the screen or at your blog,most people will think that you’re a fortunate guy to be in the showbiz and it will naturally lead us think that you’re rich. Well,evey little things have its own story behind=) Maybe you’re trying your best to hide your innate feelings so that people around you,especially your love ones,would set their minds at ease. gradually,everyone will have the taste of the reality. It’s just that you’re experiencing it earlier then everyone else. Sure,it can be a bonus to you if you learn how to manage things well where others may still need years to learn before they even step into the society/reality.=) Don’t ever try painting the picture well again…a little set backs,or mistakes will then make the whole picture even more worthy. Remember,nothing is perfect in this world. So,show your true nature self and fans around you will have the urge to know more about you. you are just YOU..and that’s how Joshua comes about. Don’t ever wear a mask,in the end,you’re the one who will be hurt. I’m sure your loves ones and fans will not want to see that.. So cheer up =D just be yourself kay?!?!
Hope you’ll see this comment^^
May 10th, 2009 on 8:39 pm
See?So many people encouraging you…so don’t give up. Tomorrow will be better
Think in a bright side 
No matter what, there are people who wish to help you. I don’t know what problems you has accountered but I know how you felt. As a teenager,how I wish I can grow up faster…to be in the working society,but you’re different me.This is not our fault.It react naturally.There will be some mischap in our lives and we must face it bravely 
Don’t give up K?
“If right at the age of 20, without much accomplishments. And you’ve got nothing to say about your family, because nothing was cherished. And nothing was worthy of being remembered. What’s the point? ”
I think I agree with this sentence.Really.But think,how about Cassie?Your family?And those who support you?Your friends?It doesn’t mean that they will not cherish what you did next time?Who knows?
“I’ve been lying to everyone. Even my closest, just to paint the picture well, just to put that brave front in front of everyone else and make everything look perfectly alright. Even me myself fall for it sometimes, believing that it’s really the life i’m leading. Which is not.”
I’m same as you.Who does not want to be fortunate?Who doesn’t want to be loved?You must be thinking…I’m just an outsider who you didn’t seen before,maybe a fans of yours maybe not.Why must she interfere so much?Well,I’m a person who wished to be your friend and I would really like to help you.But,nevermind…I’m in a situation like you had accountered. I really wished that you will think it over again. All the best!
Sorry for the very long message
I think you better check your eyesight when you read this message…Too Wordy I know…
Sorry about it.
May 10th, 2009 on 9:23 pm
Hey joshua, dun be too upset, look on the brighter side ;D Fans love you for who you are, not what closet you have or wad so ever. If you feel that you haven accomplish anything, then start now ;D it’s never too late.
Plus, you have so much supporters ;D You are not alone, everyone’s with you! But heyys, at least you post that you have been lying to everyone, including yourself, which is a brave step ;D This is something that fans might admire you for. Don’t worry to much, you might not know you may inspire someone someday;D
If you need to talk to or what so ever, email me ;D @ xiia0sn0wiie@hotmail.com
Feel Free! =]
May 10th, 2009 on 9:53 pm
LOL…OMG!! I didn’t notice your last sentence. End here?? WHAT?! WHY?!
Man,c’mon…..you still have a long journey ahead..it’s just a little set back in life…take it as an experience and see the meaning of life clearer..Life’s full of sufferings and uncertainties.If it’s too perfect…then wouldn’t we be in heaven then?? Everything will be boring with no imperfections.Why live for being a perfectionist?Take up the challenge in life and PAINT out your own life.At the end of the day,we’ll see whether it’s full of colours or just nothing. Make it a good one…
May 10th, 2009 on 10:36 pm
It’s good to hear that you are self-aware about lying and that sometimes you fall for it, and that you are making the first step to move away from them. Good luck with it!
I support not going for the variety show if you don’t feel ready.
May 10th, 2009 on 10:45 pm
this is just life
you lie to keep up good impressions in front of others
and what i really am trying to say is that;
many people are going through the same thing i.e. not being true to oneself
especially that of an artiste such as you.
any remedy to it??
i dont know but you know best honestly.
to be (true) or not to be (true), that is the question!
May 11th, 2009 on 1:53 am
wad happen? cheer up =) dun tink abt those unhappy stuff although mayb i amnot really fit tosay tis cause mi myself i have probs i can’t solve but u mus cheer up…stay happy & strong and 1 more thing..be yourself =)
May 11th, 2009 on 10:13 am
Hi Josh,
Life itself is a stage where we all have our roles to play… Like it or not, we’re all actors on and off stage… We all play different roles at different chapters – role of an obedient son at home; role of a model student in school; role of a faithful partner in a relationship; role of a helpful colleague at work; and it goes on and on….
We are humans afterall, thus it is only normal to feel the up and down swings… Even the super heroes do cry behind their masks- Batman, Superman, Hulk do too. So, it’s OK to let it all out.
Nothing is 100% perfect. It’s all the imperfections that make life beautiful. It is not the destination but the journey that makes living interesting… It’s OK to live the not-so-normal life everybody else is living. We all have our private moments and by not sharing doesn’t mean you’re “lying”.
Life is short, so don’t make it any shorter. Why be in misery when you can be happy? You can either see the glass as being half full or half empty…
We all love you and you need also to start loving yourself…
May 11th, 2009 on 11:55 am
♥joshua, cheer up uh! :] your fans will support you, dont worry too much all rights? JIAYOUS ! ♥
May 11th, 2009 on 4:06 pm
To “A lost Child”,
you are got lost!!!
i found that the colour of your sound and txt are all Grey
Luckily it hasn’t been totally changed into to black!
SO you are lucky because it is STILL grey.
Don’t believe it ?
you has been trapped in what others think that you are !
and being a coward to hide yourself from them ！
try not to be the victim of “your” blacked mind
all the best…
Regards from,
A stranger
May 11th, 2009 on 4:31 pm
u rly hv to love ur life joshua……..u hv sooooooo many supporters and u might feel tat we support u juz as FANS…but no!!!we support u as FRIENDS…….trust us……now tat u hv realised tat u’ve been lying, (like me), correct urself……tats th best u can do instead of juz givin it up….well its th same person as MYSTERY, but i really really wanna cheer u up kay….hope to see a more positive post:) [smile] hope u regard all of us as FRENZ!!!!! and like i said, i rly rly rly wish u’ll add me….coz u’ll realize only if u talk to us how much we love and care abt u!!!!!!!!!! stay happy kay and dun stress urself too much…….i shld be th one gettin stressed u noe……..TO SEE U STRESSED…haha hope tat was ridiculous and made u smile:) rmb anythin, juz email or add me at ……….. mysterious_mystery_of_the_year94@rocketmail.com …………..hope im nt buggin u too much:) hahas
May 11th, 2009 on 5:55 pm
hey joshua~
no one is perfect in this world..
in this world its full of secrets and lies…
who knws wad might happen tomorrow~
money may b damn important in this world, this society n so forth.. bt remember this MONEY CANNOT BUY HAPPINESS….
we have the right to choose wad we wana do n how 2 do it.. bt remember make sure the decision is right…. do not regret once a decision is made…
bt an important thing : living life truthfully is the most meaningful thing to have a life~
if ur life is all lies wads the meaning of having one????
anyways no matter what ever decision u make.. i will owes be supporting u n cheering u on.. coz i knw u will make the right choice n make ur life a meaningful n happy one~~
all the best~
May 11th, 2009 on 6:57 pm
I am wondering who in the worls is unique !
Erm,i can see that ur very good with words !
Very good ! Learnt some new things..
Why dont u just say ur real name ? Not nick.
Joshua,always look on the bright side ! Be positive ! And ur find urself very happy..
Kk?Dont think boout it le..
Rmb ! POSITIVE ! U should feel happy that when ur sad/dishearted..many ppl are encouraging u behind ! Imagine..me ?
No one even give a hood bout it !
Ask also dont ask lah..
See ur comments..
Whether long or short..it is still some..
erm,encouragment ?
Well..I am not very goods with words and also .. i dont know wat is happening so..
no 1 can help u ..
u have to help urself ! Pull urself up joshua !
JYJY !
Will always support u !
May 11th, 2009 on 6:58 pm
I seems to be getting out of point..
May 11th, 2009 on 7:29 pm
maybe life isn’t all that fair, we just got to learn to suck it up.
May 11th, 2009 on 8:14 pm
I’m in the same boat as you.
Right now, I just want to escape from it all. Go overseas, do some volunteer work, discover myself again.. But it’s impossible because I cannot afford it.
I am as miserable as you. I’m stuck in a rut.
May 11th, 2009 on 8:36 pm
“When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on.”
-Franklin Delano Roosevelt
Hang on.
May 11th, 2009 on 10:19 pm
Joshua, you gonna think of the positive side. Life is always like that. Cheerup (:
May 11th, 2009 on 10:38 pm
i’m not gonna comfort you. cause i always ask myself the same thing. ultimately, you are not satisfied. but others would die to be in your shoes. because they are even more unfortunate in many ways. besides, money is never an issue unless you have no roof over your head. because some people cannot even afford food. sometimes we have to count our blessings. not our misfortunes…
May 11th, 2009 on 11:02 pm
ooops,ii think you really damn sad over this thing uh?Hmmms,dont thiink too much alr okays:)
Just let it be,dont think so much&it wont bother yous.Ofcos it cant solve the prob but yous dont always keep that in mind,dont let it affect yous:)
Takecares:)
Anyw,wanna ask yous,can ii link yous in my blog?:)
May 12th, 2009 on 12:02 am
chin up dude. (: if you’re doing what you enjoy, i dare say you’re fortunate enough. go listen to hero by mariah carey, it feeds your soul.(:
May 12th, 2009 on 12:24 am
Life have its up and down. Cheerup
May 12th, 2009 on 1:22 am
hey to add to my previous comment, i feel that sometimes there’s nothing wrong about putting on a brave front. i do that too, even in front of my family and best friends. it’s just a form of guarding yourself. personally, i would prefer guarding myself than to show the world my true feelings. the feeling that you get when people tell you that everything is going to be alright or to think positive or stuff like that sucks even more than the feeling you get when you know you are just putting on a brave front. this is just what i feel from the experience i’m going through. at the end of the day, the one who knows you best is youself. due to my health problem and other stuff i’ve not been schooling for some time so i do know the feeling when you see friends happily in school. maybe this is our stage (20 going to be the big 21 next yr) in life whereby we stop and ponder about our life. i do think to myself that being 20 this year, what are my achievements, goals, future and how i have lived these past 20 yrs. or maybe it’s just me thinking to much. anyway, if you need someone to talk to just add me on msn. (:
May 12th, 2009 on 12:07 pm
hey!jus a word of encouragement..i’m 1 yr older than u but trust me, the stress lvl i’m undergoing is no lesser than urs(money, family, bgr, work, studies, etc). one problem come after another, at times they even come together, but it has nvr bothered me..i always try to convince myself that i am a happy go lucky person and God will put things in place as the time goes by..
hope u are not too pessimistic abt things happening ard u. trust in urself as well as our God. Maybe 1 day u might jus find that life is not that bad for u afterall..
*P.S: maybe u can try listening to songs by Emi Fujita when u’re really down..i feel that her voice has the power to help calm me down and give me a really good night slp!
cheers!=)
May 12th, 2009 on 1:09 pm
Hi Joshua!
So cheer up,Jiayou.
Actually,i think that people in other country maybe poorer than you and yet they did not even complain so just count yourself being bless as you are an actor of Mediacorp while other do not even had the chance to do so.And you have a roof over your head,just that you think your family don’t really care or know about you but actually they do.Believe me,there would not be a parent who don’t love their child.And yes,don’t always think you are the worst person in this world,look positively and you will be better.I am 13 and the only thing i complain was schoolwork other than that,i always think of the people who were worst than me,i think we Singapore children,are bless.
(Sorry if you think i have talk alot of rubbish but i think this is the way to make you feel better)
May 12th, 2009 on 4:30 pm
i will have to agree with clare’s comment.
im not gonna comfort u too.
joshua, i read ur miserable post on the day u blogged it.
after i read, i had many different kind of feelings.
i wanted to post a comment to encourage u, but i decided not to.
bcos i believe in ur whole 20 years of life,
u are able to know wat is right and wrong.
if u think u did wrong by painting a picture so well of u and all is just crap,
then dun continue.
learn from ur mistakes and do the right thing.
remember : ppl make mistakes.
to many others, u are consider fortunate.
count ur blessings.
u never know wat will happen in the next sec.
anything can happen in seconds.
money is something tat ppl can nvr hav enuf.
so just live with wat u hav,
do things tat u feel comfortable and happy.
“live as if today is ur last day.”
im trying to do it, i know is difficult,
but seriously, it do helps to let u have a different look of life.
always keep a smile on ur face.
May 12th, 2009 on 9:10 pm
Joshua.
How are you?Feeling better?I hope you’re ok
I have a message for you.
“Yesterday is but a dream.Tomorrow a vision of hope.Look to this day for it is life”
I look forward you updating your blog
Forget about the past.Stay healthy!Happy Always! Support you all the way!(As a friend)
May 12th, 2009 on 10:19 pm
Jiayou Joshua! I know life is not all that fair, but BELIEVE in yourself, or god.
Brace yourself up, have more confidence, be brave and face the challenges you face head on. I support you. JIAYOu, dear Joshua.
May 13th, 2009 on 1:28 am
Did u c e no of comments u recieved??? So many ppl r encouragin u n tryin to comfort u!!! Jia you le Joshua… Everyone is here to giv u support n tryin to cheer u up… Dun worry so much… Tis is life… Everyone definitely gt somethin tt they choose to hide at 1st n gt tired of hidin in e end… Juz live ur life e way u wan it to b so tt u hav no regrets in e future… Jia you!!! =)
May 13th, 2009 on 3:12 am
Hope after this depressed entry, you have been smiling from your heart. God bless. Wishing you true happiness always.
May 13th, 2009 on 9:32 am
It’s already liao wor.
Don’t felt sad about it.
Cheer Up!
” Better Self for a Better Tomorrow.”
Just stay healthy. (:
God Bless.
May 13th, 2009 on 2:52 pm
high five joshua, i know what you feel.
our life sucks, well, maybe yours do not. but mine totally suck.
with these family members? who needs them.
just now while walking home, i wanted to just cross the road with streaming cars going past. i just wanted to die, tears was coming down my cheek,
but i did not cross the road, because i know my family would be waiting for me, but even if i didnt have that thought, i would die anyways, tonight.
that wasnt fake or from a story book. it was true.
okay, whatever it is. just be strong and hold on, you never know who in this world might really need you.
May 13th, 2009 on 3:30 pm
You want to end your blog like that? No. Please keep on posting and we will support your blog. Don’t be so sad. Who never lie before. I guess everybody too including your mother and brother as well. Jia yous okay? Come on! Reply us back…): so sad that you just want to end your blog like that. You must be brave… What you did is already a past..Now you care bout should be NOW. So stand up. Post your blog again. ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ): ):
May 13th, 2009 on 3:57 pm
Please joshua… Could you don’t end the story of yours? PLEASE!@!@ I don’t want to force you but it’s the real fact that you should not end your story. Come on..stand up. Keep on posting. Whatever makes you sad you just post it in your blog. We will forever surrport you. ADD OIL! JIA YOUS! Come on.. I beg you, don’t end it just like that. Sobs:( sad eh. Ain’t pity? If you just end your blog like that. I also did lie bofore. Guess you don’t need be so sad.. People do lie, yes we do, eh? So don’t be so sad! Cheer up man! COME ON! CHEER UP! That’s all i’m going to say to you. Remember, whatever it is, or whatever you had lie or whatever shit you have done, it is already a past. Waht you should care now is NOW! REMEMBER..
But guess you should be like that:D.. Kays? Happy.
May 13th, 2009 on 3:58 pm
* If you just end your blog like that, then it would not be fun at all..*
May 13th, 2009 on 4:51 pm
加油啦~~
会永远支持你哒
嘻嘻
May 13th, 2009 on 6:10 pm
Relax
Stay strong
Think positive
Face it
SMILE
May 13th, 2009 on 7:02 pm
hello. although i donknw anything . but do rmb fans will always care for u . anw saw u on news juz nw
ok… i go watch pilimit le . today last ep on channel 56.
who else lik aaronyan in frh there?
HE RAWKS !
PS: joshua RAWKS too
May 13th, 2009 on 7:14 pm
Dun b so harsh on urself. It’s all rite. U can still go 4 d interview. Just tell the truth abt urself n u will feel wonderful! I feel wonderful and light when I tell d truth. Try it!
<3 ,
Apple Juice
May 13th, 2009 on 7:17 pm
Can u update ur blog??? It’s been quite a while since u updated ur blog…
May 13th, 2009 on 7:23 pm
Arghh!!!! My darling dog licked some of my chocolate! Pray tat she won’t die…
May 13th, 2009 on 7:52 pm
Dont be sad, cheer up!
Everyone still supports you,
dont be too sad,
there will always be your fans for you! (:
All the best.
May 13th, 2009 on 9:16 pm
Everybody have to face up to reality and their problems someday. It is just a matter of time. Although it hits really hard, we will definitely become stronger and mature with the passing of time.
May 13th, 2009 on 9:40 pm
so…..are you going to blog in this blog again ??
May 13th, 2009 on 9:49 pm
take this as an example. How many people are cheering you up now. Dont you feel fortunate?
May 13th, 2009 on 11:04 pm
I agree that living a lie is horrible .
Self-denial , self-deluding that you’re happy even when deep down inside you knw you’re actually not .
That’s what I feel everyday .
Pretending that I don’t like him anymore ,
Pretending that I’m happy with my life .
I may have everythg a person wants in his life , but I’ll never get the thing I want most in my life .
Oh well , life is always like that .
Forever waiting and waiting for that miracle to happen , but it never comes .
And all you can do is cry , and nthg else .
No one understands how you feel , no one understands your pain .
It’s horrible .
May 13th, 2009 on 11:06 pm
hi! i’m 20 too.
and i understand ur situation,cos i’m also in a situation almost similar as urs.
so, there’s nth much i can say bout it…
jiayous&cheerup ya! ^^
May 13th, 2009 on 11:46 pm
goodluck!
u r the best!!!!
(^_^)
May 14th, 2009 on 9:29 am
Cheer up!(:
May 14th, 2009 on 2:24 pm
hello..
joshua mai sad..
cheer UP ((:
be happy n smiLe
May 14th, 2009 on 3:16 pm
hmms,your num issit ****3799?
May 14th, 2009 on 3:54 pm
The darkest hour is that before dawn;
This stream of life;
Remembers its roots,
The spring of love;
This stream of life;
Faces the fallen leaves of hardships,
That scatter around it;
Overcomes the rocks of obstacles,
That blocks its path;
Breaks through the mud of sadness,
That stains it;
Yet not without help;
For rays of hope shine upon it,
To support and reflect the stream;
And showers of love and care,
Strengthen it and keep it going;
This stream of life;
Continues its journey,
Through all that strengthens and defeats;
It grows, slowly, steadily, into a river,
A river of life;
When the time comes,
This river of life, will reach its final resting place,
The sea, the ocean, of heaven.
Never will it forget,
That spring of love,
Its roots;
The stream of life,
Its classroom;
The fallen leaves of hardship,
Its teachers;
The rocks of obstacles,
Its lessons;
The mud of sadness,
Its examinations;
The sun rays of hope,
Its support;
The showers of love and care;
Its pillar of strength;
The river of life,
Its life;
The sea and the ocean,
Its heaven.
This is just a little poem I wrote.
I hope it helps.
May 14th, 2009 on 9:10 pm
hey Joshua!
So sorry about that I change my url for my blog ’cause of those stupid spamming….
Btw,cheer up k?
May 14th, 2009 on 11:40 pm
life is like that…cheer up n look at the bright side bah…same ting happen here….bud no choice….life still need to go on
smile =))
May 15th, 2009 on 9:14 am
I’m so upset because of your article.I really don’t know what happened to you.I always think you are living a pleased life.I don’t know your heart is full of Misery. I don’t understand you . But i don’t want to see how pain you are. you should be happy.whatever happened,though so sad,you must know ,you can let things make a fresh start .
You are only 20,it’s a beautiful age. you can feel Disappointed,but you can’t Despairs . Ok?
Maybe tomorrow something fortunate will come to you!
Just believe youself can make a beautiful future,i always think so.
smile more.
May 15th, 2009 on 10:20 am
hey joshua~ i dont know if you are looking at this but i am one of your friend who you have known from RC tuition the last time during our primary 5 year. you still remember me? its connie here. (: how about li bin and billy? you still remember them? (: we used to be tuition mates in RC tuition. i still can remember that you asked me to sit on the other place where you are actually sitting in my place. haha! i still remember those days during our RC tuition. (: and you and billy used to sit behind me and li bin during the tuition class. haha. well. anyway, is there any ways that i can actually contact you or something? its like we have lost contact ever since that time we left the tuition centre. i saw you a couple of times outside but i think you dont recognise me. lol. anyway i look forward to your reply soon. (: you can email me if you want to. take care joshua! =)
May 15th, 2009 on 11:57 am
Jiayo Joshua~~
all the best dont lose hope n faith in urself..
if we dont lose faith in u all the more u MUST not lose faith in urself.. take care
ur future awaits u
=P
May 15th, 2009 on 2:22 pm
Sitting on our feelings isn’t a good idea. They just get squashed that way. It’s OK to feel big emotions. Accept what is done is done, move on. (:
May 15th, 2009 on 8:25 pm
hey!
cheer up[:
gna wait to see ur upcoming happy post.
May 15th, 2009 on 11:04 pm
I have here a song for you.
Just to cheer you up.
Don’t be too stress up!
Do your best and God will do the rest
~当你孤单你会想起谁~
When You Are Lonely, Who Will You Think Of
你的心情总在飞 什么事都要去追 想抓住一点安慰
You are always moody and you try to pursue all matters, wanting to hold on to some comfort
你总是喜欢在人群中徘徊 你最害怕孤单的滋味
You like to walk in the middle of crowds because you’re scared of being lonely
你的心那么脆 一碰就会碎 经不起一点风吹
Your heart is so fragile it will break with only a touch – it cannot fight against the wind
你的身边总是要许多人陪 你最害怕每天的天黑
You always need people to stay by your side, because you’re afraid of the daily darkness
但是天总会黑 人总要离别
But there are times when the sky will turn dark, and people will have to leave
谁也不能永远陪谁
There isn’t anyone who can accompany another person forever
而孤单的 谁都要面对
And the feeling of being lonely is something everyone must face
不只是你我会感觉到疲惫
It not only exhausts you but it tires me as well
当你孤单你会想起谁
When you are lonely, who will you think of?
你想不想找个人来陪
Do you want someone to accompany you?
你的快乐伤悲 只有我能体会
Your happiness and sorrow can only be felt by me
让我再陪你走一回
So let me be with you for a while
你的心情总在飞 什么事都要去追 想抓住一点安慰
You are always moody and you try to pursue all matters, wanting to hold on to some comfort
你总是喜欢在人群中徘徊 你最害怕孤单的滋味
You like to walk in the middle of crowds because you’re scared of being lonely
你的心那么脆 一碰就会碎 经不起一点风吹
Your heart is so fragile it will break with only a touch, it cannot fight against the wind
你的身边总是要许多人陪 你最害怕每天的天黑
You always need people to stay by your side, because you’re afraid of the daily darkness
但是天总会黑 人总要离别
But there are times when the sky will turn dark, and people will have to leave
谁也不能永远陪谁
There isn’t anyone who can accompany another person forever
而孤单的 谁都要面对
And the feeling of being lonely is something everyone must face
不只是你我会感觉到疲惫
It not only exhausts you but it tires me as well
当你孤单你会想起谁
When you are lonely, who will you think of?
你想不想找个人来陪
Do you want someone to accompany you?
你的快乐伤悲 只有我能体会
Your happiness and sorrow can only be felt by me
让我再陪你走一回
So let me be with you for a while
当你孤单你会想起谁
When you are lonely, who will you think of?
你想不想找个人来陪
Do you want someone to accompany you?
你的快乐伤悲 只有我能体会
Your happiness and sorrow can only be felt by me
让我再陪你走一回
So let me be with you for a while
你的快乐伤悲 只有我能体会
Your happiness and sorrow can only be felt by me
让我再陪你走一回
So let me be with you for a while
May 16th, 2009 on 12:28 am
I have seen many people driving down the usual road with the impression that good grades equates great jobs and fat pay packets. Probably true for that successful few. Maybe they paid a very high price too, god knows.
I admire your courage to try the untested route. You are smart enough to avoid the ERP!!! Ha. For whatsoever reasons that compelled you to take up acting as a career, it’s a good move. That’s a call to take advantage of past experience and talent and turn these into real $$$.
Good luck and smile often
May 16th, 2009 on 2:57 pm
hmms let me tell u a story bah..
“从前有一个罪人，国王给了他一个活命的机会，要他答对一道难题。国王说：‘我手中的青蛙是死的还是活的？’罪人答道：‘大王，我和青蛙的死活都在你手中哪！’…”
the moral of the story is that the frog represents our destiny, the king is ourself and the hand of the kin is called hope. 世间是无常的，所以没有永远的悲苦与怨恨。dun give up hope.
May 16th, 2009 on 5:29 pm
joshua, dun be upset…
everyone will meet obstacles in life: ups and downs.dun be discouraged,be your confident self.
look on the brighter side of your life okay?
just rememeber that no matter wadd happens, us,fans will always be your side.:D
CHEER UP:D
May 16th, 2009 on 6:30 pm
Life’s full of ups and downs. Cheer up(:
Loves.
May 16th, 2009 on 7:16 pm
joshua…
dun cancel..
really miss you appearing on tv…
must trust urself..
if you think you haven had enough time wif ur family, just have enough time with them in the future..
and..
you can take off the mask you are wearing before..
use ur own true self to face others and urself..
you will realise alot of good things is waiting for you and alot of ppl who love and support you is by ur side..
cheer up..
你行的。
just lyk wat you everytime say in table of glory…
加油！！
support you always..
May 17th, 2009 on 7:43 am
hi, joshua how are you now ? Hope you get well soon…… Recently i am learning designing of logo and watermark creation and is fun! How about you did you learn any new thing?
May 17th, 2009 on 9:03 am
Joshua,i don’t know what happened to you.i always think you are living a pleased life.,but your heart is full of misery.
please believe tommorrow ,lucky will come to you.
things can make a fresh start .You can make a future you want.I think,when you are happy ,you are lucky.
Never say die,you will never fail.
i think 20 is a beautiful age,so enjoy this age.
May 17th, 2009 on 10:47 am
hey, still down? Cheer up ;D
May 17th, 2009 on 1:11 pm
I guess after much encouragement from yours fans,i hope you are feeling better.So whenever you feel down,just think of the happy memory of yours with your family,it will make you feel more better.Remember always looj on the bight sight.There always a solution to solve the problem
May 17th, 2009 on 5:15 pm
I know how you feel.
It’s the case for me too.
Everyone thinks I am carefree, wild and happy. I am not. Inside, I am…Dead.
My parents think I have not a care in the world. Wrong. I cry every night, they just don’t know.
But I just want to tell you that don’t do anything dumb. My friend said that to me too, she told me to keep alive for her so she can see me in the June hols.
So, Joshua please don’t go EMOING cos:
1-It’s…lame? ACBC larhh..
2-No matter how bad it seems, someone’s always caring for you, in heaven or on earth. I’m just one of those several people who do just that.
May 17th, 2009 on 6:59 pm
Cheer up,these are just situations of life..I’m sure Mr brave boy can overcome this period of unpleasants moments.See you at this blog soon
May 17th, 2009 on 11:03 pm
hey. i don’t normally post comments on people’s blogs that i don’t even know and i’m not a crazy fan who stalks their tv idols either. In fact, it just came across by coincidence that i had a longing to look back at what’s happening mediawise in Singapore (i always found mediacorp interesting, seeing as how i live in aus now) and i came across your blog. when i read this post, i had to say something.
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i could say what everyone else says and that is that you have had major accomplishes in your life at 20 (which is true) and to cheer up and not be sad (which is highly valid), but instead, i’m going to say something else. when you’re reaching the end of adolescence and are expected to be and act like an adult, you kind of realise that here ends another chapter of your life, and whether you did everything in your capacity to make it right – you only have once chance at living, after all. I know that i look at all those people my age who’ve done all these great things before they’re 20 – and now even people YOUNGER than me seem to be fulfilling the dreams that i wished but never came true. But it’s not only with aspirations…it’s with family and friends and loved ones…if things had been different, if you could have done things differently. I know what that’s like because i think we all go through that. And the sad fact is, there’s no such thing as a time machine to change things and make them what we’d like them to be.
And i know it’s worse for you because people EXPECT you to be grateful and happy because you’ve gotten what others only dream about – what the world seems to define as the “perfect” kind of life. I guess people forget that fame doesn’t make you emotionless…and that just because everything “seems” good doesn’t mean it must be. I’m living a “dream” of moving away for uni and doing medicine (the total asian dream), and there are so many people who only dream to do what i am doing…and in some ways, i feel like i must be grateful FOR them. But it doesn’t work that way, does it? Everyone’s human and entitled to feel unaccomplished and lost sometimes…no matter what you do in life. But they don’t understand that so you put on a mask to please them.
But i really think that it’s the attitude towards everything. True that we can’t turn back time but we have a future that we can look towards. The past shapes us and shapes the future and if you learnt from it and did something about it…i’m sure things will change. I believe in a good God that, no matter what we do, will purpose it all for the good. We’re human, we make mistakes – God doesn’t. He uses our mistakes to make everything better – it might not be what WE plan, but it’s better than what we planned…that’s what i’ve learnt and am sure of.
I hope what i said has had some help to you (if you’ve actually read it, that is).
Continue blogging coz i know that writing is such a good release when you just wanna punch something (writing is less violent too
May 18th, 2009 on 12:29 am
Heyys Joshua i saw u @ Tebrau City, Malaysia today you are dere to promote for Table Of Glory
took ur pics!
May 18th, 2009 on 4:00 pm
Joshua..you really don’t want to post ah? Just post..i want you to post…Please..Beg you!!! Just cheer up..few days already gone..so try to cheer up..POST PLEASE! I beg you last time! I will back to see your blog again… Goodbye:(
May 18th, 2009 on 8:08 pm
Did he just abandoned his blog?
May 18th, 2009 on 8:49 pm
you’re at Jurong point shopping centre on sat am ii right?Hah,
May 18th, 2009 on 9:13 pm
Are You Really JOSHUA ?!?! oMg ! I’m Your Fan . Or Maybe BIGGEST Fan ! You Looked Cute … Hahahah Especially In Table Of Glory ! .. Just Dun Worry Bout Ur Life Kae… Just Pray You Will Be Alright … =)
May 18th, 2009 on 10:46 pm
“Nurture strength of spirit to shield you in sudden misfortune. But do not distress yourself with dark imaginings. Many fears are born of fatigue and loneliness.”
Hey, I don’t know much info ’bout u since I live in Philippines. I just saw one of ur movies, explored ur site and happen to read ur post. Do cheer up
Hope u’ll feel better.
“With all its sham, drudgery, and broken dreams, it is still a beautiful world.
Be cheerful. Strive to be happy.”
May 19th, 2009 on 2:28 pm
Joshua!!! I’m back again. Please and my last bag..please do not stop blogging. Cheer up man! Don’t tell me until now you still haven’t forget about anything. Aiyo..forget about it! Btw, JIA YOUS(JYJY)
May 19th, 2009 on 5:44 pm
you are so lucky to even have parents and a whole lot of family behind you, supporting you… Your life is NOT miserable
May 19th, 2009 on 7:46 pm
haha…wow!
You really have lots of fans!!!
Just pass by here and I wanna say,
God Bless You!Good Luck and Stay Happy ALWAYS!
Hope you can update your blog soon!
May 19th, 2009 on 7:52 pm
Have fun in Malaysia!
May 19th, 2009 on 9:17 pm
I just saw the video when you went to Malaysia and promote Table of Glory.That table tennis bat is really big o.o
Lol…damn funny…
you actually throw the ball at the person…
haha…
May 19th, 2009 on 10:49 pm
Hmm…your problem seems to be compounded by your age. I would recommend going for a change of lifestyle, something different. In case you read this, I am not a regular follower of your blog (I’m a male doh). BTW, I think mediacorp is pretty crap (and it’s going downhill every year) but thats just my opinion.
May 22nd, 2009 on 4:23 am
honestly not sure at all what’s causing the misery but i’m sure things can be solved .. many at times we are not really as miserable as we think .. try not to fall into the spiral of self-pity and depression .. cheer up and move on .. kinda sad that you have to face misery at young age cos to be honest, more will come as you get older .. but that’s where you build up your resilience and fighting spirits
count your blessings, certainly there’s many people who care about you and many strengths that you possess 
if you need a listening ear or someone to advice on directions, you can contact me: yappyyapyap@hotmail.com (actually i’m not a fan, just happened to browse to your page for the 1st time, i guess that’s call fate?) take care son!
May 24th, 2009 on 12:15 am
You know what? You are just human. It’s okay to feel like that. No one’s life is perfect. Everyone has their own problems that they never told anyone and pretend that it’s ok. I’m 19, and I have felt that way before. I can’t say I can totally relate, because it’s different for everyone. But still, life goes on. We just have to move on as well. Just know that the stuff you encounter, many people encounter it too. We are just humans. Humans with emotions.
May 29th, 2009 on 12:35 pm
Money is a killer
Talk to someone you trust
I can relate to how you feel
May 31st, 2009 on 1:11 am
cheer up josh! =)
money may not be everything..
count your blessings..
you are a fortunate boy..=)
June 3rd, 2009 on 9:35 pm
cheer up!
June 7th, 2009 on 10:50 pm
Hello.
Here is a sentence for you.
See what you have and not what you dont have.
You will be so much happier.
Smile. (:
June 10th, 2009 on 8:59 pm
>.< I wonder how some of u can post so long winded one… I like, cannot lehs…
July 15th, 2009 on 4:23 pm
hey joshua. cheerup alright? smile and grin from ear to ear like you never smiled before:D
look on the bright side of life alright